Forever

One year has passed

I haven't talked with you since then

You're already at peace with the world

and here I am still struggling for life.

I am missing you

The voice, the care, the love

Where else could I find them

but only in you.

Memories about you are all I have

They make me cry and yearn for you

all the time of my waking life

Even in sleep I dreamed about you.

Sometimes I wish that I should not have been

what I was when we were still together

For I want that our love is forever

It could have been, that's all I could sigh for

Sometimes I wish that you could feel

The beatings of my heart even before I let you you know

You could hear what I think even if you don't hear me

You could dry the tears in my eyes even though you don't see me.

Life's indeed too short

for us to love eternally

But I do believe in forever

That was what you told me...

FOREVER, YOU and ME.

-o0o- 

P.S.

Written after the first year anniversary (2002) of my first military boyfriend who died in an armed battle (2001). When he died, we were no longer together (as BF&GF), but he called me to say his last official call weeks before he drowned and got killed.

The poem was written in a board paper and was supposedly delivered to his tomb on his first year death anniversary, but I did not send it. While fixing my things, I saw this poem and so I intended to write a tribute page to him at mindsay. After doing so, I will now throw the board paper away. I hope I won't regret throwing away the original paper. I'm sharing this online to preserve the poem. It's also my way of thanking and remembering him (my first ex) on his birth anniversary on the 15th of November.

I'm now happily married to a wonderful man for almost four years.